Sunday, April 18, 2010

Still hanging on

This month has had far to many ups and downs with Calorie Restriction. Guess it is best to say mostly down. If I can't get over this serious sugar pull I just know I will end up sick.(sicker) In fact it makes me feel sick for hours anyway. It is time to kick it, I will.
I did finally finish a WebSite, my design and build. It was great fun, took me far to long too do, but that is too be expected when there is no direction and the site has to flow as you go. I hope the group is happy with it. I think it turned out nice. It should be good for several years to come.
The cats are doing great, they are finally becoming a part of the family. Willy is still a bit skittish but improves all the time. I am getting better at making their food. I am making it fresh twice a week. The recipe has gotten easier to do. They sure love their raw turkey.
I still haven't gotten back to exercising. It is going to happen soon. (maybe)
It just isn't my thing. I did lose 90 pounds without it. I now need to lose 15 maybe even 20. I haven't weighed myself in over a month. That alone tells me how crappy I have been feeling and eating. I am not going to get better any time soon if I don't stop eating the blankiety blank sugar. I never thought this would happen to me. I went through times when I ate too many raisins and dates, those are nothing compared to the crappy candy I am tossing down now. I didn't even gain when I messed up but now, just not the case. My size 4's are a bit snug. I want desperately to get back in the 2's.
Maybe typing this will make me think better about what I am doing to myself. Something has to do it. I need to watch my victory video. Bad!! I know I won't. Makes me sad. Tomorrow will be a better day.