Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Lost another pound

I have been stressed out about work lately. Seems I can't handle working for someone else to well. I owned my own business for 25 years, that might explain my stress.
I think I am doing OK with it while I am actually working, it is when I get home and start worrying about losing the darn job that it gets to me. The end result is that I find I am eating while I am not the least bit hungry and wanting stuff I would never even consider eating, like P-nuts of all things.
I wanted the salty taste and knew Potato chips were out of the question. I had about 800 calories of the nasty things.
Since I refuse to have my food addiction foods in the house there isn't any of them too binge on so I grab fruit. Lots of it. One day it was an apple, 2 nectarines,  4 cups of blue berries, and one cup of raspberries. Wowza. I normally have just 2.5 servings of those high carb goodies a day. I could have had more that day but stopped with the last huge bowl of frozen blueberries and raspberries. My stomach was hurting.
I am still all stressed out but since I realized what was causing the over eating I got better control of it. Well almost.
I actually have a 2 pound loss. Yea for sure. I now have 5 or  7 pounds left. It is amazing how those 2 pounds have made me feel. I mean in the body shape not in the stress deal. My body seems actually a bit skinny, I have never felt that before. I love it.
I sure don't want to go down any clothes sizes right now. I have so darn many new clothes to wear and I love all of them.  I want to wear them and have them look good not all baggy. The size 2 jeans are a tad loose but they feel comfy, I doubt I will go any smaller in size.
I will be in Colorado all next week. Really looking forward to it. It will be a big test for me on how disciplined I can be with Calorie Restriction while eating out everyday and visiting relatives. I think I will be fine. I have no problems with it here but of course I don't eat out on back to back days here either.
Oh crap, will I ever be stressed out about the dang job while I am gone. I feel the knot in the stomach already. I gotta get over this. The lab owner needs me as much as I need him. At least that is what I want it to be.  Take a deep breath Marjie.  ok