Calorie Restriction, where did you go?

It has been over a week without candy then today somehow it ended up in my mouth again. I didn't even have that ugly sugar craving. Still don't.
I was able to stop after just a few chocolate covered nuts so I bought myself some raisins.
I reasoned this out by telling myself I had eaten plenty of raisins in the past and didn't gain, didn't lose either. So I bought a few pounds. I polished off more than I should before I remembered what the darn things do to me. Why I forget this stuff I have no clue.
Raisins, grapes, and wine all give me terrible cramps in my feet and hands. Very painful and gross looking. They are very twisted, the toes all spread out and the pain in the hands, ouch. This lasts a few hours. What the heck is it?
I am feeling better now that I am a bit more in control. I have started attempting to straighten out my hormones by trying to fix my Leptin levels. I bought a book about it.
The theory behind fixing your Leptin is:
Eat only 3 meals a day, no snacks
Eat 5 to 6 hours apart and never go to bed after eating
No processed foods
Eat a protein at every meal
Cut back on carbs
Exercise
Don't overeat
This is great advice.
And easy to do, so lets get started.

I have decided to try and eat 1200 calories a day and make the meals all the same amount of calories. That should be easy to do.
I still haven't weighed myself and won't until I am happy with myself, completely.
I remember those times, they were not all that long ago. Now why can I remember that and not remember what raisins do to me?
Guess I only want to remember good stuff.
The good stuff was when I was eating, loving and living Calorie Restriction. So that is where I want to be.

Still hanging on

This month has had far to many ups and downs with Calorie Restriction. Guess it is best to say mostly down. If I can't get over this serious sugar pull I just know I will end up sick.(sicker) In fact it makes me feel sick for hours anyway. It is time to kick it, I will.
I did finally finish a WebSite, my design and build. It was great fun, took me far to long too do, but that is too be expected when there is no direction and the site has to flow as you go. I hope the group is happy with it. I think it turned out nice. It should be good for several years to come.
The cats are doing great, they are finally becoming a part of the family. Willy is still a bit skittish but improves all the time. I am getting better at making their food. I am making it fresh twice a week. The recipe has gotten easier to do. They sure love their raw turkey.
I still haven't gotten back to exercising. It is going to happen soon. (maybe)
It just isn't my thing. I did lose 90 pounds without it. I now need to lose 15 maybe even 20. I haven't weighed myself in over a month. That alone tells me how crappy I have been feeling and eating. I am not going to get better any time soon if I don't stop eating the blankiety blank sugar. I never thought this would happen to me. I went through times when I ate too many raisins and dates, those are nothing compared to the crappy candy I am tossing down now. I didn't even gain when I messed up but now, just not the case. My size 4's are a bit snug. I want desperately to get back in the 2's.
Maybe typing this will make me think better about what I am doing to myself. Something has to do it. I need to watch my victory video. Bad!! I know I won't. Makes me sad. Tomorrow will be a better day.

The Changing Taste Buds

What the heck is going on with me? For over 2 years I have enjoyed foods that I really don't want right now. The first one I realized I didn't want was Stevia, then tea. I have tried it with raw cane sugar and don't even like that. Soon I found myself not even wanting my favorite frozen Blueberries.
Unfortunately want I am doing it eating BREAD, it is sprouted Whole Wheat but it is still BREAD. I had some Irish Soda Bread, Scones, etc, etc, all supposed to be Whole Wheat.
My most recent no no, I am not enjoying my usual huge servings of veggies. In fact I haven't had any in weeks.
I do still manage to get my seed breakfast most days. I sometimes have eggs with, yep, BREAD.
I am having a hard time getting back into good Calorie Restriction. Every morning I have the same talk with myself. "Do it right today". I did manage a no chocolate day yesterday and feel quite good about it today. I am not back using the scale everyday.
What the heck is my reason now? I am not depressed, can't use that one.
My taste buds have changed.
This has happened to me many times before. When I was obese it happened more often. I am not wanting lots of the crap I used to eat, ice cream, wine, pasta to name a few. So today I am going to really try to get myself back weighing and measuring and recording my food.
I just have too.
Damn this coffee tastes good. Yikes, I haven't had coffee in over 2 years either.
I want a Skinny Latte so bad. Good thing I am stuck here all day designing a new Website. Keeps me from poison.

Finally weighed in

I did it, I remembered to weigh before tea.
To my surprise I weigh exactly the same as I did the last time I weighed, right down to the ounce. 135.2. I now know I am eating what my body needs to maintain its weight.
March 1 I will be back to Calorie Restriction. For me that will be reducing my daily calorie intake by 400 calories.
You say that is nothing do ya? My maintain calories, which go by AGE, height, weight, sex, and activity level are 1445. So by reducing them by 400 is 30%. I can do that most of the time. I do have a few days I go up to maybe 1300.
The important part is for me to use the cronOmeter.
Slack time is over.
Well it will be March 1 anyway.

Fixing my Metabolism

I have another week of fixing my metabolism. All is going well, now.
I was sick for a few days this week. I bought some imported organic raspberries that gave me a bit of food poisoning. I wasn't as sick as others have reported, sick enough to feel pretty lousy though. I did work through it.
All is well again.
I have been forgetting to weigh myself in the mornings and refuse to get on the scale after even a cup of tea. It has been over a week of forgetting, seems to become a habit I need to break. There is no way I can tell how I am doing without the scale since most of my days are spent in men's huge pj's. I feel good so I doubt I have had a gain.
I still find it hard to eat more than 1200 calories a day and am not sure I am since the slacker in me hasn't been using the CronOmeter every day like I should be.
We went out to dinner last night, Japanese, I had Chicken Yakatori and some steak thing. Didn't care much for the steak. I did enjoy the plum wine, very sweet stuff but tasty.
The rice was left in the cute little bowl.
I am so ready to get back to my CR and less calories. I just plain feel so much better and with more energy. Weird since food is supposed to give us energy. I also seem to be thinking of food more often now that I am trying to eat more. I also have given up the rice. The beans didn't cut it for me now the rice. Darn, and I have lots of both of them to get rid of.
The rice protein powder is finally gone. I feel no different without it. I did add a tablespoon of sesame seed to my seed mixture, I now have 2 tablespoons of flax seed, 2 tablespoons of pumpkin seeds, 2 tablespoons of sunflower seeds and one tablespoon of sesame seeds. I grind them in the coffee mill and add them to an organic juice. Right now it is Acai juice. It actually tastes great, the protein powder blocked the flavor. Now I find it is sweet. The reason for all the seeds is to balance the Omegas. This way I get both 3 and 6, although I do still get much more Omega 3.

Kitty Update

The kitties are doing better, Willy is finally neutered and wearing a cone.
Bob is off antibiotics, I am trying to repair his immune system. He will be taking probiotics as soon as they get here. I am also giving them a B complex to help them through all the stress. Bob has been to the vet twice a week and he is not enjoying it. He was very upset yesterday. Normally he is a very laid back calm guy, not at the Vets. She wanted to put him on a different antibiotic but I just had to say no. I will get him healthy with food and antioxidants.
Willy was a very wild guy when he came to live with us 3 weeks ago. He now is very calm, lets us pick him up and he even sleeps on top of me. Bad habit, but from wild to this is amazing. He is a real looker. 
We take his cone off so he can bathe, if we don't he gets frustrated and grinds his teeth. So far he hasn't gone for his stitches on his tummy. Why stitches, the vet had to go into the stomach to find a lost testicle, poor Willy. I love this picture of my cone heads.

Metabolism and Calorie Restriction

I have been enjoying Calorie Restriction with the best Optimal nutrition I can figure out for myself, for over 2 years. I love it and have been successful with it but...
I gained a few pounds during a mild depression that started in Sept. 09 and didn't leave until Dec, 09. I did it with sugar of all things, nasty crap.
I didn't want to restrict my calories more to lose the pounds so I decided to boost my metabolism by eating more calories for one month. I am eating what my body needs to maintain 120 pounds. I haven't gained weight and didn't expect to.
My month will be up March 1, then I will go back to my usual 20 to 30% less each day. You might think I would enjoy eating more. Well, I don't. I have added rice to my diet to beef up the calories. I was eating legumes but just didn't enjoy them and they aren't good Paleo food. I was eating only 1/2 cup a few times a week. Rice is higher in calories and tastier, although I did tend to burn it because I always forget it is cooking. It takes so darn long to cook. March 1 I doubt I will be cooking it again so no need to perfect the method.
My goal is to lose 12 pounds then to maintain the loss. I will do this with CR and hopefully I won't gain again so I won't have to worry about my sluggish metabolism.
I did this last year and was successful so I have no doubt I can do it again. As long as it is only one month I can handle it.
My kitties are loving their raw diet. They do prefer poultry, both turkey and chicken over salmon. Good thing for me since the wild caught salmon is more expensive than the hormone free chicken and turkey. They seem to have gotten leaner without all the processed grains in their diet. I know their fur sure is beautiful.

Feeding pets naturally, raw food diet

I have been consumed with learning how to feed our two American Shorthair kitties. They have been with us for one week today. They have adjusted very good to their new environment, located the potty boxes, water and a great place to hide and sleep. Under the bed of course.

My concern is their health.
Our first American Shorthair passed away from heart disease Dec 10, 2009. I am still blaming myself for his health issues. These new kitties will not suffer as he did, I am taking control. My husband has always been the feeder, he can continue his routine with my input. He is not going to argue with me this time. I am determined.
I refuse to eat processed foods for my health so why would I feed processed food to my pets? I won't. They will not be eating grains, the number one reason for over weight and sick pets.
My kitties are eating raw chicken thighs right now. I will be adding the necessary nutrients in them so their diet is balanced for a cat.

I will buy the highest quality human grade cat food I can find for my husband to give them. I will do the raw part. They will be fed 3 times a day.
I was thrilled to see how the little guys took to the raw chicken. It was wonderful to see how they looked like a cat should look when eating. I did cut the thigh up in small hunks  but don't think I even needed to do that. Right now they are getting 5-6 1/2 pieces of raw.
We still have the dry Organic food out just in case they want a nibble. I don't know how much food to feed them yet. I am learning. I do know they don't gorge or barf up all good signs.
The chicken thighs are free range Organic, the same as we eat. When I get the supplements to add to them I will let everybody know what they are.
Please, please don't feed your pets grains. (wheat and corn)
You and they will be healthy and happy.

Calorie Restriction Paleo and metabolism

What is a "want to be skinny lady" to do.
I am stuck at 134 and can't get off.  I have decided to try and raise my metabolism again. I did it last year and was able to lose 10 pounds pretty fast so I am up for it again.
Last year I didn't eat brown rice or dried beans which I will be this time. I need to up the calories by about 400 a day, now that doesn't sound like much, but for me it is. I am not hungry at 1000 to1100 calories. Well maybe if I stay up past 1A.M.
I am used to eating just 2 meals with a snack usually an apple around noon so adding 1/2 cup of brown rice and 1/4 cup navy beans instead of the apple. I want them for the protein. I won't be having any fruit during the day.  Fixing my metabolism will require me to eat more often so I plan on eating half the rice and beans and saving half for the second feeding,. (sounds like a rancher).
Dinner will be my usual great stuff, grass fed beef, organic chicken and wild caught salmon with my favorite veggies. I will up the veggie portion to 3 or 4 cups.  I also like to have raw veggies but I am a seasonal eater and just can't eat raw during the winter, I know weird.
To fill out the rest of the day with calories I will have one  or two omega 3 eggs, fried in a very small bit of butter and later, 2 cups of blueberries with 1/4 cup raspberries for dessert. I really look forward to this treat.

I read that Stevia can spike sugar cravings. I am convinced that is exactly what happened to me last fall. Eating candy which lead to the mild depression which lead to a weight gain. I even stopped working out which changed my body shape.
I am going to work out again starting Feb 1. I am sorta looking forward to it. I refuse to eat more to compensate for the calories used to work out. That is one of the reasons I want my weight and eating under control before I go.
My new plan will be not exactly CR because I can't keep my calories 20% less. In fact I want them to be 20% higher than my BMR. To check your BMR multiply your weight by 10. I want to be 120 so my BMR is 1200. I need 1200 calories a day just so my body can function. I want to consume 1400 to 1500. Wow, that sounds like a lot. I hope I can do it. I will know when my metabolism has improved. I should lose weight again.
I refuse to over eat anything. I will still use the cronOmeter and weigh my food to be sure I am not overeating.  
As far as Paleo is concerned eating brown rice and beans makes perfect sense to me. Hunter gathers must have eaten them. They really are a very nutritious food. I didn't realize I missed them for the past 2 years.
I have switched to the Omega 3 eggs. They are great I can't tell the difference so I have to rely on what I have read about them.
I have found a new source for my free range beef. I hope to buy enough for 6 months soon.  Everybody that eats beef should look for a local rancher or butcher for their own source for grass fed beef.  We enjoy beef about 2 times a week.

Tomorrow is the big day, we are getting the 2 kitties. Everything is ready for them.
They will be eating Organic cat food made with brown rice. No grains for my kitties. This way they shouldn't have the weight and health problems most cats have from eating processed grains in their food.
I am wanting to get them some probiotics too. Anything to keep them healthy. I am pretty sure Tally's health problems was from his cat food. It is hard on me now that I have educated myself about cat foods. Just knowing we might have fed him better makes a huge lump in my chest and many tears.
Such guilt.

Calorie Restriction, Paleo continued

I am in the middle of doing The UltraSimpleDiet. It is a diet from Dr. Mark Hyman. I am eating brown rice and navy beans twice a day about 1 cup each, salmon and chicken once a week, a rice protein shake with seeds and cherry juice for breakfast and a great veggie broth.
I had decided that getting rid of allergens and inflammation right now was a good thing. It has been. I lost 2 pounds, this tells me that I wasn't inflamed much if any. I don't know about allergies to food but I do know a runny nose is gone. I didn't have it all day, mostly a few hours in the morning.  It has been completely gone for a few days. Now I can go back to my regular Paleo and CR diet to see if it comes back. Then I should know what food is causing it.
I read that brown rice and beans are not on the Paleo list of foods. Well guess what, they are going to be on my Paleo list. There are plenty of foods that are on that list that I will never eat. I can't see what is wrong with brown rice and dried beans. What it does for me is allow me meatless meals. I really want a few meatless meals each week. I also find it easy to take 1/2 cup of rice and beans to work. Now I don't have to take cottage cheese which I never like doing in the first place. I really wanted to get completely away from all milk products and now I will.
This past week I stuck with CR while doing this simple diet. It was very easy to do, much easier than with the foods I had been eating. My calories for each day have been around 1000. I hadn't been able to keep them below 1200 for a very long time. Since I am such an old lady I am not supposed to be eating more than 1400 a day to maintain my weight at 130. So at 1000 I am OK and on CR.  I want to weigh 120, it is a better CR weight for me and I do have a small frame, I am 5ft. 6.
I sure cut back on the blueberries. From about 2 1/2 cup a day to 1 cup a week.
I need to figure out a new meal plan once I am finished with the UltraSimpleDiet. The plan is to go right into the UltraMaintenceDiet. Dr. Hyman doesn't suggest counting calories but just how can I not. I gotta, it is me. So I will eat some of the foods he suggests and still keep my calories low.
I bet he wouldn't agree with me..
My weight today, 134.8 and I am back in one pair of size 2 jeans. They must be a big 2, I sure don't fit in my skinny jeans size 2 yet. I will get there again, I am just a few pounds away.

Kitty Update
We finally found an American Shorthair in fact we have decided to buy 2 of the little beauties, both boys. One is a white, silver, the other is a Classic Silver Tabby exactly like Tally.
In fact he is a decedent of Tally's daddy, Maverick.  We were thrilled when the breeder told us that. We pick them up at the San Jose cat show this Sat. They are coming to the show from Oregon.
The Greek is getting all ready. He has two of everything.
So far we think their names will be Jake and Gus. We will see when we first see them.
We are so ready for these two little kitties.

Calorie Restriction, Paleo diet plan for the week

I have been asked to make a post about what I eat on the Paleo, CR and Raw food diet. It is very simple, plain cooking and eating raw. This is a typical week.
Breakfast:

• 2 tbs. flax seeds
• 2 tbs. pumpkin seeds
• 2 tbs. sunflower seeds 
• 1/2 cup organic unpasteurized orange juice

Grind the raw, unsalted seeds in a coffee mill, add to the orange juice or any unsweetened juice. This mixture is thick if you want to drink it, as I do, add some hot water about 1/4 cup of less. This breakfast is about 400 calories. It is a complete omega 3 and 6 food source.

Lunch:

• 1/2 cup Organic 2% Cottage Cheese
• Or
• left over protein chicken, beef or fish 3-4 oz.

Dinner:

• 4-6 oz lean Organic protein, chicken, beef, or fish.
• Raw spinach with olive oil and red wine vinegar.
• Roasted or steamed veggies with Olive Oil and sea salt.

Dessert:

• 1-2 cups frozen Organic Blueberries
• 1/2 cups frozen raspberries
• Stevia to sweeten

Drinks:

• Flavored green teas all day long

Extra's:

• I take supplements to fill out my daily needs.
• I track my nutrients with the cronOmeter
• I weigh myself everyday.
• I journal everyday.

Condiments:

• Horseradish
• Organic ketchup
  
• Olive Oil
• Lemon
• Butter, very little.
• Lots of spices
• Stevia
  

This typical food diary, for me, is about 1100 calories and full of nutrition. I am seldom is ever hungry or thirsty. I drink tea for a water source and get the rest from my food choices.
If I am wanting something to eat after 7 I will make it raw celery with a bit of sea salt. yea, I know salt is bad, so is plain celery to me.

This weekly food plan intentionally low in carbs from fruit. If you can handle the extra carbs and calories eat an apple Organic of course.  You could also add  a few eggs  a week.

Supplements:

I take several for various reasons, below are what I think are important.

• Vitamin D 3 5000 IU
  
• Probioatic
• Vitamin C
• Calcium

I find I get close to and sometimes over all the Vitamin B's from my food choices, I have it on hand if I want to take a B complex.

My new supplement is Glucomannan, it is a fiber that completely fills me for most of the day. Since it is a fiber you know what else it does. I highly recommend it if you want to feel satisfied for several hours a day or night. I haven't tried it at night yet. If you want to buy it online PM me. I will send a link.  macomarell@gmail.com

Calorie Restriction with Low Carb

I had another good day with my CR low carb plan. I always took an apple for my lunch at work, today it was a bit of cottage cheese and a ground beef patty. Perfect lunch for me.

I walked into the house later than usual and was pretty darn sleepy and hungry, the darn Greek had some yukky white bread on the counter, he had eaten almost the entire loaf, so I cut myself a small piece. It tasted just awful. I loved it because it did taste awful, so bad that I didn't want anymore of it. I added it to my daily food intake, it didn't cause any damage.
We had Grilled Halibut with raw spinach for dinner. Yum.
I seem to be always hungry after a fish dinner, so I had blueberries, just one cup. I am so much better with measuring again. It did pump up the carbs and sugar but I am still pretty low at 30g in sugar for today.
I was 137.2 this A.M. Yea
I thought the gain might come off pretty fast because of the type of crap I was eating.
Sugar

Calorie Restriction

I am happy to say I am back weighing and measuring and counting calories. It was very easy to do, I have no idea why I was putting it off for a few months.
I have decided to really try hard at keeping my protein high while keeping carbs and sugars low. Today I did really great 1015 calories, 99g protein, 43g carbs and 22 g sugar.
The only way I can keep the carbs and sugar down is to stop eating apples. I need the 1/2 cup fresh Orange juice for my seed breakfast. I mix two tablespoons  flax, pumpkin seeds and sunflower seeds that I grind in my handy coffee grinder. This mixture is packed with nutrition that starts my day. It is also packed with calories, about 450 of them.
I usually get a bit hungry around 1, that is when I go for the apple. I am going to try a full cup of 2% organic cottage cheese instead. Of course this is my winter food, summer is always more green stuff.
It worked just great today, kept me full until dinner time.
I had a top sirloin steak and roasted broccoli for dinner, a full day of nutritious food and only 1015 calories.
I didn't miss the blueberries and raspberries until around 11pm, far to late to eat anything. I never eat past 7 or try my best not to.
If I manage this again tomorrow I will be thrilled.
I finally weighed myself. I am 139.4. Yikes. That is a 12 pound gain. It will be gone in 3 months, the same amount of time it took me to gain it.
I need to weigh 120 for my height which is 5ft 6in. I did the test for frame size, I am small framed. I had no idea I have a small frame, guess it was hidden under all that fat. Now I know why I always felt fat at 135, I was, I am.

A very sad day

Our pal, Tally, a pure bred American Shorthair passed away today. He was 15 years old. We are both very upset. He was fine this morning, nothing unusual. About 11:30 he apparently had a blood clot go to his brain. I rushed him to the vet where he passed at Noon today.

We will miss you Bubba.

Calorie Restriction with Winter foods

Wow, I am having trouble with winter foods. (again). Seems I don't do so well without all the local fresh produce and I just can't force myself to buy imported. I have put on a winter coat of about 5 pounds. (again).
I am back to munching on those yummy sweet dried fruits again. Damn, why are they so tempting. I am trying to stay off them and do great for several days then my boss pulls out those fabulous huge dates and raisens he keeps inches away. I give in every single time. He is Persian and knows where to get the best dried fruit I have ever tasted. I told him he is a bad influence on me. Didn't do any good.
Everything else is going great.
I have a shopping and dinner date all planed with the beautiful granddaughters. We are going to San Francisco for the day shopping at the huge Nordstrom mall on Market. We plan a ride on the Cable Car to Tadich Grill on California then up to Nob Hill for dessert at the Top of the Mark. They are all looking forward to it. It will be a long and fun day.
I can sit and relax coming home on Bart, they have a 3 hour drive back to Mendocino county.  Poor things.

Calorie Restriction with Cron O Meter

I managed to use the Cron O Meter again today. I even did a bit better with the fruit. Maybe no so good with carbs.

I am a seasonal eater, I can't imagine going into winter without winter squash. I love it baked then topped with a bit of butter and salt. I can't stand it sweetened or made to taste like a dessert.
I buy the small ones and eat the whole thing. That is what I did today with an Acorn squash. I expect I will be doing this for a few more weeks until I get my fill of them.

I don't eat much through out the day. Normally just the flax and oj in the morning. I start getting hungry around 3 so I have an apple. I cook dinner around 5 when I don't work 7 when I do. I don't like eating anything after 7 so this is a bit hard on me. On work days I don't eat anything after 8 that is for sure. This is a good habit to get into. Once I got used to it I am not hungry or even want anything to eat after 7.

You sure can see by looking at the Cron O meter why I and everybody else should be taking vitamin D. Unless you live in a sunny place and can be outdoors to get it. I don't. So I take 5000 iu. a day. Good for depression and combating the flu.

I also take a B complex because I usually don't get 100% of that either. I guess I need to look into some Vitamin E or look for something I like that will give it to me. I haven't done that yet.
Calories today were around 1100. Not bad but not great either. To lose weight I need to be closer to 900. I need to do that just a few days a week.  Tomorrow, yea I can do it then.

Calorie Restriction

I have decided to get back to using the CronOmeter everyday. It is very easy to do but I quess I got lazy with using it. I sorta know why, I still am eating way to many carbs and don't need a reminder of just how bad I am.
I have had no weight loss since I got back from vacation. I did great while gone but really blew it as soon as I got home. I did gain a few pounds, they are gone now. Whew, now I can get my act together and lose the final 8.

Here is what I mean by blowing it with carbs, just look at how much fruit I had today. Not near enough protein either. I made a Greek dish with stew meat, green beans and tomato sauce. It was just OK. What I did love was the 6 Bell Peppers I roasted. I forgot them in the oven so they were like candy when I finally took them out. Almost like that dried fruit candy. I put them in a bag to let them cool then took off what peel I could, added some balsamic vinegar to them and ate all of them. Wow, what a treat.
Now I need more. I doubt I ate a total of 6 peppers, but I could have. I know I wasn't hungry for dinner but ate a bit of it anyway. Then charged into the blueberries. I gotta get a grip and eat better. I think I left off a few food items. Olive oil for one. So the calories are a bit low. Calorie wise I did OK, food wise crappy.
Oh well, good thing I took my vitamins today.

Calorie Restriction while on Vacation

I was in Colorado for 6 days. It was the best trip in a very long time. I visited with family and enjoyed every second of it.
We ate all our meals out and I did very good with staying on CR and my food plan. I didn't lose because I was eating more than I do at home. I often don't eat breakfast nor lunch at home, if I do it is a fruit. We ate 3 meals a day in Colorado. I did order protein and didn't touch the carbs. I did drink wine and beer. Something I don't do at home either.
It was on the darn airplane ride home that I messed up big time. I bought a big bag of pea-nut M&M's and gobbled them all down. I wanted more. The Greek got them for me. I gained 3 damn pounds.
Now I am craving sweets, what an idiot I am. The worst darn thing I could have done.
I also bought 2 melons, 2 huge bags of huge grapes, raspberries, blackberries, blueberries and apples.
Of course I am pigging out on all those tasty treats.
Weird how I am sabatoging myself after losing 100 pounds and making such a deal about it. I will get myself back in line. I have to, I feel bloated, fat and miserable. Something I haven't felt in a long time. Amazing how eating bad can do that and fast.
I wanted some candy again tonight  but made sure the Greek didn't head out to buy it, he was on his way when I finally said NO.
I sure wish I lived in Colorado.  Oh well, I don't,  California will have to do. Darn.

Lost another pound

I have been stressed out about work lately. Seems I can't handle working for someone else to well. I owned my own business for 25 years, that might explain my stress.
I think I am doing OK with it while I am actually working, it is when I get home and start worrying about losing the darn job that it gets to me. The end result is that I find I am eating while I am not the least bit hungry and wanting stuff I would never even consider eating, like P-nuts of all things.
I wanted the salty taste and knew Potato chips were out of the question. I had about 800 calories of the nasty things.
Since I refuse to have my food addiction foods in the house there isn't any of them too binge on so I grab fruit. Lots of it. One day it was an apple, 2 nectarines,  4 cups of blue berries, and one cup of raspberries. Wowza. I normally have just 2.5 servings of those high carb goodies a day. I could have had more that day but stopped with the last huge bowl of frozen blueberries and raspberries. My stomach was hurting.
I am still all stressed out but since I realized what was causing the over eating I got better control of it. Well almost.
I actually have a 2 pound loss. Yea for sure. I now have 5 or  7 pounds left. It is amazing how those 2 pounds have made me feel. I mean in the body shape not in the stress deal. My body seems actually a bit skinny, I have never felt that before. I love it.
I sure don't want to go down any clothes sizes right now. I have so darn many new clothes to wear and I love all of them.  I want to wear them and have them look good not all baggy. The size 2 jeans are a tad loose but they feel comfy, I doubt I will go any smaller in size.
I will be in Colorado all next week. Really looking forward to it. It will be a big test for me on how disciplined I can be with Calorie Restriction while eating out everyday and visiting relatives. I think I will be fine. I have no problems with it here but of course I don't eat out on back to back days here either.
Oh crap, will I ever be stressed out about the dang job while I am gone. I feel the knot in the stomach already. I gotta get over this. The lab owner needs me as much as I need him. At least that is what I want it to be.  Take a deep breath Marjie.  ok

From a 2x to a 2 in 2 years 100 pounds lost

I finally put together my victory video for youTube. I did it. I am 100 pounds thinner and tons happier.
Since I do calorie restriction once I am at the so called normal weight I need to lose 10% for optimal health. Calorie restriction is part of my life so I know I can do it. I will continue eating the same foods and same calories everyday just like I have been doing for 2 years. Life continues.
I lost 10 pounds this year so I expect to be at optimal weight in another 8 months. That is perfect. Slow and very steady.

Calorie Restriction, wine and more wine

Yep, I drank to darn much wine at the Moondance. Had a nice case of the vintners flu the next day. I had a great visit with my daughter over the week end. She is such fun to be with.
I didn't count my calories but I did make sure I ate foods that were on my plan. No grains, milk products, sugars and starches. That was the easy part.
The wine is all carbs and calories, so of course I messed up there. But, hey it was fun and I won't be doing that for a long time. I do love wine.
So how did I do with the weight? I was thrilled to find that I came home weighing what I did when I left. 131. No loss, no gain. Way to go. A pat on my back from me.
So we can drink the wine, in this case several glasses, eat right and not gain weight.
Only 4 pounds to my 100 pound loss celebration, no wine will be involved.